294,365 BCE
Ash fell for three days without stopping.
The surface of the grassland turned white. A film of ash spread across the water's surface, and the animals that came to drink pulled back their necks. The wind came from the east. To keep the morning fire alive, the one wrapped wet hides around the hearth and turned his body against the wind. Ash entered his mouth. He spat. He turned back again.
The group did not go east.
In a group grown too large, there are those whose bodies move before any decision is reached. Some wanted to head north. Some pointed south. The one said nothing. The fire could not be left unattended. If the fire died, the night would come.
The second world shone through the ash. Three days after something collapsed beyond the mountains, it arrived here — not as sound, but as a trembling in the ground. The soles of his feet felt it. The one felt it too. The stones of the hearth shifted slightly.
Half the group went north.
Those who remained kept the fire. The one had come to be among the oldest of them. He watched a young man carry water. A child touched the ash with its hand, licked it, spat. The one made no sound. Instead, he took the hand and turned it toward the river. He pressed the child back into its mother's arms.
It took ten days for the ash to thin.
Until the grass returned, the group lived on roots and insects. The one cured hides. Smoke-cured hide covered the smell of ash, and the animal smell disappeared. He wrapped himself in it to sleep. The hide was cold against his cheek.
Over those five years, the second world watched as another group camped on a nearby hill.
They were an older kind of people. Broad bodies. Wide foreheads. But they too had fire. Red fire. The further away a fire, the redder it appears from a hilltop. At night the one sat before his hearth and watched the fire on the hill. He watched it and said nothing. He simply kept watching.
What reached him was a smell.
On a night when the wind shifted, the smell of roasting meat arrived. The distant smell of charred flesh. The smell of fat dripping. He could not tell what animal it was. Only that it was meat. His stomach made a sound. His body tilted slightly toward the smell. He did not straighten himself.
He looked at the hill.
In the group, someone noticed. Someone pointed toward the hill. Someone made a low sound in his throat. Someone picked up a stone. The one held nothing. No stone. He had been tending the fire, so he stood before the hearth.
That night, no one went to the hill.
By the next morning, the other group's fire had gone out. Whether they had moved on or extinguished it, no one could say. The smell was gone too. What remained on the grassland were the remnants of ash and a small black circle. The one did not go near it. But he looked. From a distance, he narrowed his eyes and looked.
Five years passed.
The one was sixty-seven years old. On a winter morning, on his way to fetch water, his leg hurt. On the inside of the knee. He stopped. He set down the water vessel. He pressed his hand to his knee. The pain came from somewhere inside the bone. It had come the winter before. And before that.
Within the group, two young men had begun to look at him differently.
At first it was not words. It was their eyes. The way they looked at him had changed. When the one sat before the hearth, the pace of feet passing behind him had changed. When something was to be decided, his voice was no longer sought.
He knew.
He sat before the fire and knew. He did not give voice to it. There was no voice to give. He had perhaps a dozen sounds. But now none of them came. He simply sat before the hearth and cured hides. Smoke entered his eyes. His eyes ached. He kept curing.
One morning, the group stirred with the feeling of departure.
Not everyone. Half of them gathered their things and moved east. The young men were at the front. Several children were taken along. Several women. The one was at the hearth. No one took his belongings. No one asked him to leave the fire. He was simply left behind.
Those who remained were few.
The fire was there. The one kept it. He fetched water. Even when his leg hurt, he fetched it. Near the end of winter, a child among those who remained fell into a fever. The one wrapped the child in hides. Three days later the child was running again.
Before the one's sixty-seventh winter had ended, he collapsed on the path to the water.
He tried to rise. His knee would not bend. He remained with his hands pressed to the ground, unable to get up. He could see the sky. It was a grey sky. Someone from the remaining group came and took him by the arm. They pulled him upright. The one made a sound with his mouth. A sound with no fixed meaning. Not gratitude, not pain — simply a sound that came.
He returned to the hearth. He sat before it.
He cured hides. He laid a stone on his knee, holding it down with the weight, and went on curing.
I let the smell of meat ride the wind.
The smell that came from the fire on the hill. The smell of fat from a distant group. His body tilted toward it. He tilted without picking up a stone.
I wonder whether that was enough. He did not pick up a stone. How much that simple thing amounts to, I still cannot measure. I think about what to pass on next. His leg is in pain. The hides remain. Winter is beginning to lift.